Back to work. Really? Already?

Time flies. No surprise there. 

But never has time whizzed by me at warp speed like it has over the last 11.5 months. 

Sophie turns 1 at the end of this month. With that comes my return to the office.

I am experiencing a lot of different emotions, depending on the hour of the day, Sophie's mood, and the alignment of the moons. 

Here's a taste of my mental smorgasbord:

• Excitement! I miss using my brain in an intellectual capacity.
• Fear. I don't know if I still have a brain to use in an intellectual capcity.
• Excitement! I look forward to nurturing my career again and am looking forward to doing valuable things at the company. 
• Fear. I know it will take a lot of work to regain my footing after a year off. 
• Excitement! It's a whole new company now with new systems and new processes.
• Oh crap! I have to learn new systems and new processes.
• Excitement! I get to drink hot coffee again.
• Fear. I lose my nice homemade coffee and will be stuck with gut-wrenching Tim Hortons. (Mental note: Must buy coffee press to make coffee at work)
• Excitement! Sophie will meet new people and learn new things at daycare.
• FEAR! DAYCARE! Oy.
• Fear. Finding time to keep up with all my meal preparation and workouts to stay fit and healthy. 
• Excitement. Finding new ways to integrate my priorities of nutrition and fitness into my workday rather than working out at night.
• Excitement! A real paycheque again!!

I could go on, but you see how the dance goes. 

For the most part, I am looking forward to returning to work. I miss the intensity of deadlines and using the analytical and pragmatic parts of my brain. It is hard to employ the use of reasoning skills with a 1 year old. She just doesn't want to see things my way at all :)

-jl