It's been awhile

I haven't posted in a while. Life has been hectic.

I thought life was crazy before I want back to work. It was, but just a different kind of crazy.

The working mom stint is tough. I won't post what a typical day looks like, but let's just say that by 8-8:30 at night when dinner is cleared away, the daycare bag is packed and lunches are prepped for the next day, there isn't much energy left to spare. That's good, because with my new early rise, I need to fall asleep early!

But, we are adjusting! And there are a couple of highlights of my day that I have come to love.

• Driving to working together after dropping Sophie off at daycare. We get 15-20 minutes to chat, laugh at silliness, make fun of slow drivers, drink coffee...without having to turn around in our seats 100 times to amuse Sophie.
• Driving home after work! Seems like some of the best moments are in the car these days :) We get to vent about our days, help each other figure out solutions, support each other and get excited together about picking up Sophie!
• PICKING UP SOPHIE! This is the best part of the day. It is like Christmas on a daily basis. She is so happy to see us (for 15 seconds before resuming play) and we get to snuggle her up and give her kisses (for 2 seconds before she pushes us away).
• Sitting at my desk in the morning. I feel fresh. For a little while, I am not responsible for Sophie. I can focus on me and work.
• I love that I can get dressed up in the morning, and stay clean!
• Adult (mostly) interaction and conversations.
• The 2-2.5 hrs at the end of the workday that I get to spend with Soph before her bedtime. Those are quality hrs. We have so much fun and I soak her up because I appreciate her so much.

I operate differently at work than I used to. It is no longer my top priority, and that is super freeing. I am more efficient, and more productive than ever because I know that in 8 hrs, I have to get out of the office, regardless of how much work I have to do. Little things don't bother me like they used to. I don't stress over things that now seem silly and insignificant to me. And I am less interested in allowing people to waste my precious time with silliness. Need to bitch and whine. That's not productive. Move along. 

There are some things that I am finding tough. Like my nutrition and workouts. I am somehow managing to keep up with them, thanks to making them a life change while I was on mat leave, but it sure is harder to fit those things in. But I must. They are key to keeping me feeling grounded and healthy. I also find it really hard that someone else gets to spend more time with Sophie than I do. That seems wrong to me. 

This post is a brain dump. Nothing particularly funny or thought-provoking in here. Just a snapshot of the current state of my world.

Until I next find time to write...